"The only way to avoid disappointment is to expect nothing from people."

Flipping through pages of my psychology diary which was written 3 semesters ago. It's just something about me. But I'm not sure if I'm still like this :O

1st post to share: In most situations, I possess an ambivalent attachment style... I found myself hard to get close to people emotionally, which may be a reason of my over-protectiveness towards one or two individuals... I was brought up by my caregiver. Basically, I spend much more time with my caregiver than my family members. I felt withdrawn from people. I tend to hold back my words in expressing myself... Now, I tend to invest lesser of my feelings in others, as I do not want to lose people who understands me deeply. (wad logic is that?? -.-)

2nd post to share: For the past few nights, I've been dreaming consecutively of the same scenario. I was running anxiously as if someone was chasing behind me. I did not look back, and all I wanted was to quickly reach the ground floor, but they seem like a never-ending stairway. The dreams happened on an escalator, at the carpark stairs, and also at HDB corridor stairs. I am clueless of why are those scenarios appearing in my unconscious state of mind. From young, I've always played the 'Police' role in the game of Police and Thief. I dislike the feeling of being chased after.
Teacher's comment: Hmm.. Being chased/running away from something indicates some anxiety happening. What is happening?

The dots are stuffs which are more sensitive. Shouldn't be posting :p
Not an emo post! Just trying to get some feel to write my psych report.