I suck at everything.

When you try to control too much of your life,
you control nothing.
:(

Am I Replaced?

Today is 21st June and it's also Weiting's birthday! 4 days later will be mine, but I don't know what to expect.

Received an email from school stating that I'm being assigned a hall for this upcoming year and what's better is that I'm getting back my own hall! Don't have to be afraid that I'll have to travel home and sleep during my 8days hall camp before school reopens. If my new roomie allows, I may even invite my friends without a room to sleep with me :D Excited for the camp, but not really looking forward to being a senior because it's weird that the guys are older than us but we're looked upon as being older. And I bet they will enjoy the camp as much as I had 1 year ago. And I'm determined to join at least one hall sports!

Few of my friends are going overseas to further their studies, and year 2 is going to start for me. It's kinda depressing, as I'll be away from life again. Luckily there's dear dear staying near school so things aren't so bad. And also, many of my close friends are starting their school after 1year of work! Hope they will cope well and not drift away from me :( If there's any chance, we can meet up and study together and enjoy the last few years of having study buddies.

This is my first long holiday in university. 3 months sound like a long, crazy break, but now we're only left with 1.5 months. I'm really happy to have spent a fulfilling holiday. Met up with couple of friends and we became really close, closer than we used to be. Now that we've all grown up and became separated, the encouragement we gave to one another is priceless. 


OK, here is something crazy. My hall ghostwalk will be held near a cemetery and I actually volunteered to act as a ghost :o It's not confirmed yet but I'll be going for the trial tomorrow till midnight. Kind of excited about the make up. It will be my second time putting on make up! *as a ghost* My first time wasn't anything to be proud of either. *a vampire* Hehe but it's great to have so much fun with everyone making fun of one another.


Hope everyone will have fun in my 21st party! It's my very first attempt to organize an event and may everything be good. (o^-^o)

Today is the 20th. It should have been a wonderful day, but I think I ruined everything.

I don't wanna live another day filled with such loneliness.

I wish love isn't so fragile

Today feels empty. Don't want to stay in the room alone tonight..

I should have known better.

Baby, your friends are here to visit me again today. They are really great and I'm thankful to have known them through you. Thanks for introducing such wonderful friends to me and never fail to brighten up my weekends as well. I'm missing you again.. so much. I wish I can learn to live through a week without you. It's been months, but I'm not doing any better.